Monday, December 29, 2008

{bright and shiny christmas morning}



Christmas morning came and left our little nest.


Christmas Eve saw that I did not receive my much needed rest. The night was filled with last minute wrapping, straightening up, soothing of children and absolutely no sleep.


I worked all night making sure that thing were perfect. Working so hard to achieve that "wow" effect. The one that turns all eyes bright and shiny in the wee hours of Christmas morning.



As I did that I got to thinking about the gifts that I was wrapping. What had we given our boys?

Bossy Pants got cars and puzzles. Games and coloring books. Toys.


Baby Boy got a mat and lots of things to chew on. More toys.



I wish we could give them more.



Things that I couldn't wrap in pretty packages and place beneath the tree.


I wish I could give them the hope of a peaceful new year.


The promise of a childhood full of laughter without tears or pain.


I wish I could tell them that they would never know disappointment.


That they would be accepted by everyone. Treated well by everyone.


But these gifts are not mine to give.



I find myself wondering this time of the year, what lies in store for us. Where will we be next year? Will we be proud of what we have accomplished and what we have taught our children? What kinds of gifts will they receive from us in the months to come? Will they be the gifts that you don't outgrow or get bored with?

I sometimes get this feeling that there is something on the horizon. Something that we may not be prepared for. That in turn, our sweet little ones may not be prepared for. Perhaps it is just that I am a mother. Maybe this is the paranoia that I have heard so much about.


Whatever it is, it got me to thinking. And then, as it should, got me to praying.


May your New Year be full of joy and peace and gratitude. May your homes be comfortable and your hearts be full. May your hands be open to receive and open to give. May you keep close to you the cherished things.


May your New Year be a blessed one!

8 comments:

LORI said...

YOURS TOO, ASHLEY!

Mary said...

I remember having little ones and wishing the same things for them. As the years have gone by and I've comforted my children through rejections and pain and loss, I've come to see how these trials helped them grow into the good people they have become.

So try not to focus too much on the unknown--let God lead you as you help your children face the challenges that WILL come. I believe you are right, there is something coming, something difficult but also beautiful for those who turn to the Lord and hold their children close in love. With you as their mom, your children have little to fear! Bless you all!

LORI said...

DO YOU HAVE ANYONE "CRASHING YOUR NEST" AFTER OUR FAMILY PARTY TOMORROW? CAN WE?!

Nathan and Toni Southam said...

Little at your little chunky monkey sitting up all by himself now. That is just the cutest thing in the world. Looks like you guys had a great Christmas! Maybe one day we can have Christmas together!

THE CAVEY CLAN said...

Oh, it was so good seeing you and your ADORABLE, SWEET, ANGELIC little men! They are WAY too cute for words. I wish I would have been able to talk more with you. My mind (as usual) was so scatter brained! I love you though and LOVE reading your words of wisdom! I too fear sometimes about the unknowns my children will have to face. I love what Mary says though and believe it whole heartedly, they will come and I need to prepare more for how to help these moments mold them into the people they are to become! Have a safe and Happy New Year!

LORI said...

THANKS SO MUCH, ASH! I DON'T HAVE YOUR #, BUT WE'LL BE UP TOMORROW--THE WEATHER WILLING! WHEN'S THE PARTY? HAS ANYONE SET A DEFINITE TIME THAT YOU'VE HEARD?

JDButler Family said...

Ashley just keep showing them how to keep hope in the face of disappointment, tears & pain. . . & continue to let them them see how you accept others, even when they don't accept you! If not for the bitter & the sweet, how could we know to enjoy the sweet! <3 U Mom

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