Thursday, August 27, 2009
i suck in when i walk.
i look at the ground.
i hug my purse around my mid-section.
i cross my arms.
i let my hair fall in my face.
i tug at my shirt.
i try not to be noticed.
my hair is dull.
my nose is all wrong.
my eyes are big.
my mouth is bigger.
my hips are wide.
my shoulders are broad.
my legs are thick.
i have been told i am pretty but i've never believed it. sometimes i wondered if my eyes were different than other people's. i wondered why i couldn't see it. perhaps my blue was their red. perhaps my vision was blurry.
a few months ago i made the realization that i have not once in my life been happy with my appearance. not my face, not my hair, not my body.
how arrogant of me.
without this body i would not have been able to experience the many blessings of my life.
without this body the world would be short two beautiful boys.
my body is my greatest blessing.
our bodies are God's greatest, most beautiful creations.
without them there would be no purpose for anything else.
i feel so proud and so vain.
mostly i feel deeply ungrateful.
but how do you begin to change a lifetime of thinking?
Chirped by ashley b @ 10:16 PM