the thing about change and me is that it takes quite a bit of internal and mental prodding for me to make the jump to it. you see i tend to make myself quite comfortable where i am and once the jump is made i find myself in a kind of new commitment. commitments are stressful at times and i don't like breaking them.
over the past couple of weeks i have been feeling the need to make changes in several areas of my life. changes that i have been inspired will help me to become a better wife and mother. and hopefully just a better person in general. i don't think that means that i have been living my life in a bad way...just maybe not the best way for my situation.
i thought i was ready for the snow to leave. but it has been a blessing today. it's given me the opportunity to stay home with my boys and relax and enjoy them. i've listened to soothing music and taken it easy. the spirit in my home today has solidified my desire for changes and i'm ready for the jump. some of these changes are personal. physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally. others are not. like the fact that i am ready to quit my shop for the time being. i have loved it. really loved it. but right now my ultimate goal is to raise my children well and to be there for them as best i can. i am so blessed to have a husband who i know will do all that it takes to provide for our family. there is nothing fulfilling enough to make up for the time it can take and the energy that would be better served elsewhere.
i want to take this week to focus on these things and not stress or divert my attention elsewhere. so i'll see you next week perhaps? good. take care then.